The Many Adventures of Keira!

This is our page to document our family's adoption journey- starting from when we first started planning for our little one, to when we brought her home. We're also going to keep this updated with all of the things that Keira has been up to since she's been home with us here in the U.S!

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Is It So Wrong Of Me?


The other day, I ran into a co-worker that I hadn't seen for quite some time. She's been so buried in projects and meetings that she rarely gets to peek her head out from cubicle world, much less leave her desk to go to lunch. We crossed paths and the first thing she asked me was "Hey Sharon! How is your baby?" I told her how great Keira has been doing and how big she is getting. As we were parting ways, she said, "Oh! Well, I guess I shouldn't call her a baby anymore, huh? I mean, she is officially no longer a baby and a toddler now that she is 2!" She had already walked away as I continued standing there like an idiot talking to myself...."No! She's still a baby...isn't she?" She's still a baby, right?"
When DO you stop calling your baby a baby? The thought makes me so sad! Even though I don't necessarily SEE it because I see her every day, I KNOW Keira is getting bigger just by little things like her pants! I'll buy her a new pair of pants and before she's worn it a second time, they are already floods. She talks more and more each day and even though I don't understand everything that she says, her communication gets clearer and clearer as time goes by. Every day I look at Keira and marvel at how fast she is growing without necessarily thinking that one day I wouldn't be calling her my baby.
I love the fact that she is becoming a wonderful, smart, happy, beautiful little girl and that I have been so blessed to be part of that, but is it so wrong of me to wish that she would always stay a baby??? I love the funny silly little things that she and I do and the silly songs that we sing with her as a baby that in a few years she would NEVER do in front of her friends out of fear of not being cool. I love the fact that Mommy and Daddy mean love and feeling safe as a baby and when you are a kid, you're usually hoping that they won't do something to embarrass you! I also love the times when she wants nothing more than for Mommy to carry her and give her kisses or when she wants to be EVERYWHERE with you, including the bathroom! I KNOW that the time will come when she would rather go out and do things with friends. That's ok...it's a normal part of growing up. But does she HAVE to grow up???
It's such a wonderful time and it goes by so fast. I just want to enjoy every second of it.
I know, I know, it's selfish of me and I know that she isn't going to stay a baby forever, but I don't care...Whether she likes it or not, she will ALWAYS be my baby and that's that! ;)
On the other hand though, it could be fun! I remember my dad would pick me up from school in our car, which was a bright Orange Gremlin. He would be dancing around in the driver's seat really silly with the windows rolled down and BLASTING some crazy Rick James song totally on purpose just to embarrass me! I guess if it's going to happen eventually whether I like it or not, I can start thinking of fun things to do that will embarrass her when she gets to the "cool" stage! lol

4 comments:

Glenn said...

I think Keira is always going to be your baby girl regardless when she is elementery, jr/high school, and her wedding day. Even though you won't call her that in order to not embarrass her, deep in your heart will always be the baby girl.

Rod said...

Sharon, She'll be your baby girl forever. You are her mom and always will be. I think my mom still thinks of all of us as her "babies" still. I can't wait to be able to embarrass the crap out of Chloe!

GO TRAVELING "Get Up! Go Traveling!" said...

Girl, you know it!!! Until our girls get out of pampers that means they are still babies to us!!

Then when they potty train they'll be elevated to baby-girls.

Then when they start riding tri-cyles they'll still be big baby girl.

Then when they wear pretend makeup and start wearing your clothes they will be pretty baby girls.

Or when they have trantrums. Bratz-baby LOL

I think the girls in our blog group are going to be babies forever!!!

Paula said...

I quote one of my favorite books to Jason and Jess all the time "I'll love you forever, I'll like you for always, As long as I'm living, my baby you'll be." I still call Jess my baby.